with 'him'

Sometimes i think,ever past is past and don't look back for past and look forward for future,then life will not repeated but somehow,human always make this mistake.Just like me,These days been keep in touch with ben..about him,i also what to say just that i use to have feeling toward him,however the feeling did not last long till the time i know he has a gf.Then everything just stop.i think im still young,everything also wanna try..from dunno anything till i know what's makeout..etc.i even did that before with ben before i knew the true.These days my msg with him is totally more than me and dear msg.Well,izit because the relation in between is different,me and ben is friend and me and dear is couple??that's y the feeling also very much different.Some more,i know that ben study at utar,kampar..make me look forward to kampar.i wish i can go there and i wanna go there too.Seem like i make it become complicated but to be clear,i still know what am i doing...