haiz

i really dint expect that sis will rather let go her love than keepin the relation wid parents..i did not wish things become like tat..!!feel myself bad that im not beside sis and give her support..wish she can actually stay strong wid her decision..and at the same time hopefully they dun trouble sis anymore..i know how it feel that need to let go the love 1..when is still fallin in love the person..!!Haiz..also dunno wat's going on..who r those damn ass..telling tha saw this,saw that..super annoiying..really want those ppl go hell lah..argggggggggggg!!super gik hei...

waiting...

Well..after talking to baby last nite..really cant wait to see him..just like wat he said,thou we did not meet for a month but it seem like a yr..but anyhow,its really happie to hear from him that will come n find me..=)so exciting..!!Yesterday sis text me n tell me what she heard mum told the aunty..no matter is talking about me or sis,perharp both of us..it still cant get to turn everythin off like what she n dad want to..i just want my life to be normal,no much things happen,then i'll be glad adi..wish me luck..plzzzzzz,i need luck..!!Hoping the day to reach..then i can see baby..adi ler...faster come ler...

OMG!!

OMG
gone case adi..
what am i doin??
it not suppose to be like tat
i should not care so much..
somemore
he's not whoever to me!!
am i like really bored here??
hmmm,i also dunno
just need ppl to entertain me
i guess is like tat
i think i've been long dint see baby
that's y is like tat
mayb when i get to meet up wid baby
then will back to normal
gosh....

曾经

伟成是我的曾经。。
不可否认
他的确是我最爱的
最关心的一个
就算现在
还是会很关系他
对他的感觉
也模模糊糊的
回想起
和他一起的时间
真的优点怀念

姐对他满意
也许爸妈也会喜欢他
我曾经答过
如果有一天
他找回我
我会如何？
我回答了，不会
但现在
我开始犹豫了
也许真的有幻想过
和他再从心开始

真得很矛盾
不晓得自己怎样
或许现在
暂时不要想
读好书吧！！

wat's wrong

Just within 2 days,and it has so start to complain i did not accompany..I also not sure about myslef,waht am i doin??Is not a big deal argue..just baby is merajuk there..y i seem i did not bother much??i love baby..alot,as well miss him alot too..somehow,i did something bad behind him now..well,i do have a lil enjoy what i had did just now..eventhou i know i shouldn't do that..but it did help me to get empty my mind for awhile..this what i get when im wid him..!!i did not mean to hurt baby..not being mean to show that friends is nore important..haiz,i also dunno ar..better get my studies done 1st..b4 talkin about anythin..or what..!!

goin insane

WHAT'S WRONG??
I THOUGHT IS OVER
Y WANNA TALK BACK?
Y CANT LET GO ABIT?
I KNOW WHAT UR WANT
I WILL TRY MY BEST
TO HIT THE TARGET
IM ALREADY SO STRESS UP
I KEEP QUIET
NOT B'COZ OF WHAT
BUT
JUST DUN WISH TO QUARREL
IS REALLY TIRING!!
HOW MUCH U WORRY
I UNDERSTAND
I KNOW
IM NOT HOPIN ANYTHIN
AND
NOT WANA GET BACK ANY
JUST WANNA GET SOME AIR
I WANNA BREATH!!
STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS MATTER!!!

leave

leavin should be happie
in another way
will get to feel better
than stayin at home


wish that after leavin
things will get better
and
others will remain


it might be sadness
for some people
but
is consider happie
for me


i wont care
what they think
just pray hard
nothin will be change

愿~希望存在

对于亲戚，家人。。都很开心同时也替我开心，但事实上却没有人知道，只有我自己。我很明白，只要把真想说出来，也许就不用则么辛苦了，可是我却不愿意接受另一个噩梦发生。看到爸妈在为我忙碌，为我打点一切，真不想打乱他们。。我只想他们开心，不要再为我担心，这就够了！去金宝，会使我另一个辛苦的开始，还有很多问题要解决。。也许从一开始就不应该只靠老天保有，要自己去争取，或者这样才会有成就吧！！现在的我，不要求什么。。只愿一些还有希望，一切平安，就好了。也不会再要老天给我什么，我只希望老天有灵，就保佑爸妈还有姐身体健康，一切顺顺利利就得了。。让我为一点希望而活。。

sad

Thing is always like that
when i really wish to happen
it did not work out
but when im not
then it just happen suddenly

Just like this time
i was praying so hard
wish can go through this time
but end up
just a word~disappointed~

i started to think
im actually useless
is a small thing yet i cant get to do it
haiz..