December 08, 2013

Miserable


Ever Wonder who is he?the person that sit beside me?Basically he is just a colleague that base in JB. I'm not sure staring from when, i find it every interesting where among all the colleagues I've met, he was the only one that I've not met when he was round at PJ for training, coincidence I was on BL during the period and when i was back, the training had over. I'm not sure since when we started connecting, from the beginning related regarding on work till the moment I started to whatsapp him and we chat. After sometimes, I started to feel i might have a crush on him? I dunno, I'm confused. After knowing he had a gf, i feel upset. But i know at the same time, i've a bf as well even though he dunno about it.

how can this happened!!!!!!!!!What Can i do??or actually i couldn't do anything where he already attached with someone for some times. feel so miserable. i actually think whether can we make it?is there a chance?in the now?future?or none...

or probably i should tell myself there's no chance not even future, he did not say anything, mention anything.
not even admit anything..!!??should give up..i guess that's what i need and suppose to do. By right, i will need to focus on my work,  concern on my family, enjoy my life by hanging around with friends, love more to the one you should be....

July 04, 2010

the 1 i was in love with

This person was my ex..though arent long being with him..but is kinda nice being together..!!after broke up with him till now been 5 years..both of us been grow alot..too,no matter why we broke up..the reason i wanted to know is not longer important..!!He's just the person i will wanna care,know how his life goes..things just weird..he's not longer my some1..im also not any important person to him..why do i still care so much??!!..i also not sure..but feeling just so weird..even i have baby now..but since i met him back..i wish i can be the one he look for when he's bored..stress on studies..but i know this wont happen..Well,i should forget about it ..right?hehe..i know i should..but as been mention..feelings is weird..he seem staying in my heart..deeply..I just wish he will have his way toward the studies,life and everything..^^

March 09, 2010

重修旧好?

是不是心已不在
分手两个字才会出现?
是不是意已不再
才难以回答?

到底是心软了
还是仍存爱意?
好乱啊。。
不愿回答‘不’
是哭声打乱了呢
还是仍然不愿意的放下?

心情仍然未平复
怪怪的。。
不晓得到底哪里不爽
哪里不对
还没能像以前一样似的!!

真的能忘掉不开心的事?
而往前看吗?
有些事或许不能
但我们的事或许可以
不是吗?

心还有对方
就应该不是问题
仍然可以努力维持
不管将来是怎样

既然已经决定了
当作给彼此
多一次机会
那就不要想太多了吧!

但愿此事不会,也不要再发生了!!

December 23, 2009

Well well well..

After outIng today
i think the feeling is lesser
nt that strong any more
mayb i just think too much
with so long nt meeting up

Guess..
he still in love with the ex..
but somehow just with some reason
nt getting back together..

After so long..today is the 2nd time
v watch movie together
kinda reminds me of the past
but anyway..is past rite

I use to think
whether can i have
the 1 that love me much
and i love too
and also the 1 i use to in love with
and having feelings too

Just like sis..haha
sound pathetic
Well,guess is time to leave out
and let it be..
should concentrate more on baby
than jon..

December 21, 2009

What wrong?why?

Guess im kinda slow to know
What actually friends for?
When u need only u look for friends?
When u bored u find friends?
When the ur close 1 not there for u?

May be i should admit something
words from mum are right sometimes..
like friends around me..
cant compare with those around sis
with the guy around them either..

After i been to kampar
After i get in a brand new class
After i knew a new gang
May be it can be consider better
compare with those high school mate

Feeling may wrong sometimes
but it may be right though
Ever jia yuan is back..
I guess he dint thought of finding me..this friend
But others did
Ever i meet up with jon..
even he was my ex..
but just because he's bored only find me..this friend

Am i really not worth to be treat better..?
Am i not a good person to be friens with?
Am i so not trustworthy..to be friend?
Am i?

lost

yesterday really had a great time with jon..through out the chatting..we really like a great friends for each other..feeling quite good..!!But im thinking izit good or bad to meet up..after so long..i know i care about this person much..but dint realize it so much..i cant do the same thing as sis doing rite now..i can see,n i know is very bad to do it..baby love me so much..how can betray him..i seem so lost..haiz...any1 can tell me how???

November 22, 2009

无言

我是不是为了你就不能有男性朋友。。为什么要这样,真的觉得厌倦了。。每一次都是这样。到底是我的问题还是你的问题。。让我觉得不好。。什么你跟别的男子笑就不要你。。难道我们的感情就那么的让你觉得没有安全感。。非要说此话不可吗?!真得很不喜欢这样。。气到了。。!!感觉很无聊。。为了这样的事而闹得不堪。。为什么?是不是只要变得无言。。有很多事情就会变得简单?变得容易解决。。是吗?已经知道你会是个很大男人的男子。。却没想到一变本加厉似的。。该怎么办呢??又有烦。。没有有烦。。