droping...

I dunno what's wrong with me but i know i feeling upset..guess i really mind the words that baby said to me this evening..i feel hurt!! I know just a words with i love u can mean alot to u..as goes to me..but u know my situition and is not the first time..why cant this time u endure with it..like previous??Ur msg..all the words seem throwin on me,suddenly i feel myself so heavy..seem caring somethin..but actually not..i felt breathless..when i went dinner wid yew n sinzee..i've been happie wid them but im not actually..i cant get my brain off thinkin..about the called and those msg..!!Im cryin out there and u just get urself cool and seem nothin..just now on phone i really cant get to express im nothin..but what can i do..im not blaming anything..but whatever lah,since its over..cant change anything that r out..

gambatte!!

Have done 2 paper on monday and tuesday..for acc paper seem like hope down..but i just wanna get a c or a c+..and mass comm paper i think slighly have a lil hope gua..haha=)prayin that god can give a little power to me..!!Now need to concentrate on mangement paper which on saturday..Then arounf everning will need to go for biao jiu jiu's wedding at ipoh..!!Will need to work hard on it ler for management paper...dun wanna bb to get down again..i wish i can just get graduate together wid my love1..hehe..=)as tat day talkin most probably if he will apply for oversea's uni and if he get it then he will be goin ler..im happie with it but at the same time i also understand how he felt that time when i say i wanna came over to kampar..but he's more further..ler..but i love him..i wanna him to be good..everythin for his future i will support him..!!I know u can do it ya..will wait for u..anyhow..hug,love ya

ishh

really wanna pray that she dun coz me problem..can anot!!Alwiz dunno listen from which dumb ass mouth..make my life so trouble..arggg,so dun like it..she make me dun feel like goin back for the sem break..a word so unconfortable..!!Who dun like to go back..home,if i can which she give,of coz i willing to go back even just for 2-3 days..better than nothin..!!the best idea for her as well she can look after me from goin anywhere...i really got nothin to say n have no comment to give about her..haiz,she just do watever she like lah..dun come n bother my life ere..then im thank god...!!

我的他

已经有很久没写了，这几个星期我过得很好。。因为我有他，虽然没有家人的认同，但我还是很开心和他一起。也许，我和他会有很多艰难的日子，但毕竟我还有姐的赞同和支持，对我来说已经很足够了！或许，刚开始的时候会有点顾虑或感觉不好，但和他一起这么久了，他真得让我觉得它可以信任，可以让我靠。。尤其是每当我不开心的时候，还是面对这家人的压力的时候，除了姐，就只有他让我觉得安心。。可以让我的心平复下来！这种感觉是多么的温暖，多么的舒服。我不要求什么，简简单单的就够了。为什么要弄得那么复杂呢？！我不明白，但也不想理会。。现在的我，虽然还是承受着很大的压力，一宗无形的压力，会让人喘不过气来！但我仍然相信我可以挨的过去，一些都会变得美好。所以，要变得坚强一点，因为我有它的陪伴和支持。他所做的一切，让我很感动和温馨。。真得很谢谢他为我付出的一切，不管是金钱还是时间。。全都很宝贵！我会好好的收好。。=）

那个他是我的爱人~他叫叶厚子

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exam is coming,i feel so worry n kinda stree up thou..just cant stop myself thinking this n that..argggg,n im trying to force myself to study and start to do some past year paper..hopefully it really get to help me to pass through this final..!!my life is just so terrible..full wid lies..dunno when i will get to end all the lies...haiz..even baby cant get to help me..sometimes!!In front of mum n dad is not longer like previous..it had a wall in the middle of us..blocking,as long as they cant accept my life wid some1 else then everything will just need to continue wid lies..n it keep going till the end..!!I really feel tired of all this..but..wat can i do beside hiding n hiding..all the secret..

stay away..men!!

Sometimes i just dunno wat im thinking..
i've baby adi..and im proud to have him
argg...just piss myself..y cant i control
guess will have to stop sms him as well as meetin him up..
cant betroy baby..as he loves me so so much
n i love him too

i should be alert wid the situition now
i have a bf adi..n should't do anything that hurt my bf
no matter we had arguement..anot
just need to stay away from none connection ppl